Body Intelligence

Few weeks ago, he brought over my house Peonies flowers, but they didn't want to bloom. Yesterday, I bought my own bouquet of Peonies, and look, they are already blooming!

Blooming Peonies.

In the last six months of giving a chance in true love, committed to my bones, it came down to "I am not good enough for you, Dragana". This was heavy on my heart to read, and as I was processing and reflecting on the relationship, saw there was pattern of mine behind to look at closely.

I had to let him go, the relationship was just not fluid. It ended becoming little bit of unhealthy behaviors and I was not going to tolerate any of it.

He couldn't understand my silence when at home. Brining up many times that something was wrong between us. He asked me multiple times to break up with him and that I deserve a man who can give me the life I want. You are the woman of my dream and see a future with us...

In the midst of it all, my love for him grew and grew stronger. There were moments of feeling, I was Home and seeing a potential future together. My heart was open.

A chance in love.

But if it cost me peace, I don't want it.

I cried for two days, and third day I am fine.

So go ahead and understand a women's

emotions....

The body intelligence knew, and it's has been giving me signals; some things will come to an end, so just feel into it, and move forward with trust, faith and love. It gave me signals of physical pain, emotional disturbance, and a lack of focus. However, this inner knowing, innate trust what things work out for the best. I was also at a point, couldn't sit still 20 minutes for a meditation. The only thing that was helpful was cycling, yoga asanas, and writing out my thoughts and experiences.

As prioritizing my health is always first on the list, I have learned throughout the years, how to connect deeper with my body intelligence. Whether, through free form movement, Yoga Asanas, being in nature, I like to check in daily with my physical figure. Personal experience has proven me; when we are attuned with our body intelligence, we move forward in life with fluidity and divinity. Many scientific and philosophical research papers have been published on this and I am happy to see that there is a broader awareness around this topic.

Dear readers, I believe, the process of getting to know Self is daily. Self-knowledge isn't a destination we arrive at once and check off, it's more like a practice we return to, day after day, because we keep evolving and the world keeps showing new edges of ourselves. As on the note; giving a chance in true love, why not? and remember, this could of gone badly, given my history, but it didn't!

Gasija,

Journal 047

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