Be the change you wish to see in the world.

Gandhi

Be the change. Be the gate-keeper. Reach for the North Star.

The only way for things to change is by transforming self. Release all the patterns and identities that no longer benefit me and have hindered my evolutionary growth.

Needless to say, today, I had a phone call with unemployment agent asking me questions as to, why I have applied for unemployment? Her voice from the beginning of the conversation was very unpleasant and just not really willing to listen. Here I am who doesn't want to cast any judgment about her lack of positive attitude, I was thoroughly honest in answering all the questions she asked. I was undervalued and underpaid. So I resigned from the position due to the lack of leadership within the company. Within this economical price rising at every corner possible, big corporations are not willing to pay a fair salary. Our conversation lasted 10 minutes, and I asked her, how long will it take for the decision to be made about my unemployment benefits, since I have filled three weeks ago?, she responded, "oh, within the next week, by Wednesday". I responded, thank you and have a great day! I had an immediate sense of feeling, she has already made her decision.

Five minutes passed, I receive an email my unemployment benefits have been denied.

My body cringed, and chest pain came through in my heart. I said, fck! Within sixty seconds of processing the denial letter, I sat back and took a deep breath. Brought myself to center and comfort, allowed the information to process through. Closed my eyes, and felt this natural innate state of trust; everything will be alright. You're loved, protected, and whatever is happening to your current reality, it's meant to put you in a direction for something bigger, beyond yourself.

The point of this story I felt like bringing to attention in today's journaling; why do we allow unfairness and injustice at a workplace or simply, any where in the world? And when we have to voice something about it, raise the concerns, not many really have the empathy to listen, will-power to make a change?

As I am journaling on this experience today, if I am the creator of my reality, where in my past have I given denied response? How is this mirroring me currently? What lesson am I learning in this moment? The answer to it all; this innate state of trust, this inner transformation is happening, and it's going to be very powerful, regardless of how unknown and scary financially seems right now. I felt this big sense of relief, self-forgiveness and freedom. As I was journaling, the awareness of my thought process got hyphened. My nervous system relaxed.

It's about midnight, so I am ready to Zzz into my lovely bed. I want to hear what you think about my scenario today, share your thought process after reading this journal. Much love dear readers, stay kind, and be selfless.

Gasija,

Journal 048

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